This might get long, but hopefully you will bear with me. I want to tell you about my life. There are things i need to get off my chest, things I've never talked about with anyone.

 

I'm 26 years old, found out I have aspergers syndrome a couple of years ago.

 

I've been living in almost complete isolation the last 4 years. 3 years ago, I moved to a new town where I didn't know anyone. My own choice, to get away from my old town and the people I knew there. Start over in a way. And it worked out. Even though I've been more alone than ever these last years, I've been feeling pretty good the majority of the time. It helps to be anonymous. When no one knows me, it's easier to go to the grocery store or just take a walk, something I was barely able to do before.

 

A few months after I got here I had the idea that I should cut contact with everyone and everything, except for my closest family. Over the years I've stopped watching television, reading the news or using the internet for anything social. I kinda went off the radar you could say. Naturally, this has resulted in me losing the few friends i had, real life and online. What has been keeping me going are my two hobbies, movies and video games. Those are the two reasons I've been getting up in the morning. I literally have nothing else.

 

Before I go on, let me tell you about how I got to this point. I'm not gonna go into too much detail since I'd be writing all night, but lets just say my teens were pretty tough. And I didn't make things easier for myself, since I just wasn't a very nice guy. I was too proud, too stupid, and responded with anger when things didn't go the way i wanted them to. I was a hard person to like. This led to me being treated worse and worse over the years until I was pretty much ridiculed by everyone, even my own relatives. Naturally this led to a low self-esteem which was pretty much at rock bottom and my academic performance suffered. I stopped caring. I skipped school and couldn't care less about tests. I just wanted it to be over.

 

After the obligatory years i tried more school but never got more than a couple of weeks into the year, before giving up. I have as little education as possible at this point. And I haven't had a proper job for more than a month. I don't even have my driver's license. You could say i have less now than i did 15 years ago, except for minimal life experience.

 

Which brings me to the present again. The reason I'm writing this in the first place, is because I've had some dark thoughts lately. I've started asking myself if I really want to keep living like this. In the end, what's the point in living for video games and movies? They're supposed to be entertainment, not something to base your entire life on. I've started to loose interest. Games just aren't that fun anymore. For the first time in years i want change. I guess these are good thoughts in a way, but the problem is.. i'm worried i've sunk to deep to be able to make the changes i want. And i'm not even sure if i want them, or what i want.

 

As i mentioned my self-esteem is low. Most of the time i feel like i'm less than nothing. I've been able to cope only because it doesn't really matter when i live this way. I guess that is part of the reason i made the choice to isolate myself 3 years ago. It just seems impossible to live any other way. I'm hoping this is just a phase and that i will be happy with my life again, but i've been really depressed lately. I've even had some suicidal thoughts. Nothing serious yet, but i'm worried it might get worse.

 

So if you've read all this. What's my next step? What the hell should i do? Thanks.

Kill your parents and post pictures here.

LOL @ WRONG PLANET

 

ASPIES ARE AN ABOMINATION TO ALLAH

less qq and do what i saidd on ur wall

so are you serious...why the hell you going on an internet forum??? Go meet a psychologist or a counselor...I'm sure you get a disability check so use it to talk to someone.

forget it, hes dead.

Bullshit... The most reasonable way to go now is to kill your parents, since they gave you the retard genes and turned your life into the mess it is now, then take pictures after you slit their throats while they sleep, and finally, put your dick inside your dead mothers mouth and take a picture holding a card saying "myg0t owns my soul".

 

Simples as that, gonna give you new purpose!

I'm curious as to whether this is real or just copypaste. If it is real then PM me, if not, KILL UR PEARENS LOL IM COOL E-THUG>

 

Why would anyone come HERE for personal problems anyway?

It is my professional stance on this topic that I suggest you seek medical attention for your severe depression that you may have. I also suggest that you consider moving back with your family or someone who you feel comfortable with. On a side note why do you feel the need to close yourself off from the world with little to no interaction with your peers? I feel that this may seem easy to do but the strain it is putting on your mind and body may be minor from the beginning and seem like something you can handle but it is medically proven that everyone needs interaction with people whether they be female or male.

 

 

 

My main concern is your use of words that hint terms of suicide. “Going on like this” and other references lead me to believe you are on the verge of suicide. If this is true please seek medical assistance by either going to a physiatrist or visiting a hospital where they can admit you to get some mental guidance. What I do not suggest is visiting a church or house of “god” as they call it. These locations thrive on people in your citation. These so called houses of god “repent” you from your sins and in return they expect a large money “donation” in return for having god save your life. If you have these thoughts please go buy some marijuana and smoke it or buy many alcoholic beverages till these thoughts are erased or a blanket of alcohol has coated them.

 

 

 

If you have any more concerns or questions I will be here for you, because at myg0t.com when people have social or mental issues they come to me, the g0tychiatrist. Feel free to pm me or contact me on IRC. Have a good holiday and go have some fun! Meet new people get your dick sucked or fucked and have a good holiday and remember what I told you about the money pits AKA Houses of God 8-)

 

 

PS: If your illness bothers you go seeks some groups that share the same pain i know one famous persion of suffers fro mthe same disorder and he seems to be doing fine, just as Beau Goldsby.

Edited November 27, 200816 yr by Jitler

i would suggest, seriously, don't take the drug route to cope with your problems. i have seen this happen a lot in my lifetime even though i'm only 16 years old. its good that you are letting the shit off your plate even if it is on an internet message board. you should find something to do that expresses your feelings in such a way that it makes you feel good. obviously playing video games, and listening to music doesn't help.

 

what if you tried art as a way to express yourself, it works for me. i had a lot of shit go down when i was younger, and it makes me forget those things and move on, and my family has a history of depression (and a few suicides that followed). i forget about it and move on, and you should too.

 

i would suggest getting on some prozac, or some other type of anti-depressant to help the situation. that could sort of help in an indirect way to get over the fact you have a lack of social interactivity. you should get out to a bar and meet some chicks.

Lol he's probably one of those self-diagnosed faggots.

It is my professional stance on this topic that I suggest you seek medical attention for your severe depression that you may have. I also suggest that you consider moving back with your family or someone who you feel comfortable with. On a side note why do you feel the need to close yourself off from the world with little to no interaction with your peers? I feel that this may seem easy to do but the strain it is putting on your mind and body may be minor from the beginning and seem like something you can handle but it is medically proven that everyone needs interaction with people whether they be female or male.

 

 

 

My main concern is your use of words that hint terms of suicide. “Going on like this” and other references lead me to believe you are on the verge of suicide. If this is true please seek medical assistance by either going to a physiatrist or visiting a hospital where they can admit you to get some mental guidance. What I do not suggest is visiting a church or house of “god” as they call it. These locations thrive on people in your citation. These so called houses of god “repent” you from your sins and in return they expect a large money “donation” in return for having god save your life. If you have these thoughts please go buy some marijuana and smoke it or buy many alcoholic beverages till these thoughts are erased or a blanket of alcohol has coated them.

 

 

 

If you have any more concerns or questions I will be here for you, because at myg0t.com when people have social or mental issues they come to me, the g0tychiatrist. Feel free to pm me or contact me on IRC. Have a good holiday and go have some fun! Meet new people get your dick sucked or fucked and have a good holiday and remember what I told you about the money pits AKA Houses of God 8-)

 

 

PS: If your illness bothers you go seeks some groups that share the same pain i know one famous persion of suffers fro mthe same disorder and he seems to be doing fine, just as Beau Goldsby.

 

lol trolled.

tl:dr ALL I SAW WAS ASSBURGERS